And I do not mean that sarcastically. Seriously.
I have now known for an entire year more about myself than I ever thought I could.
Things that I never would have guessed about myself.
I am beyond cool with my body at this point. I have always been a heterosexual female, but I have definitely in the last year had more woman look at my naked body than anyone else.
I did actually venture out of my comfort zone and I had a boyfriend for a brief period of time. Which of course #noregrats not even 3 months.
Still a little bit of a flesh-wound
But in other news,
I am literally pelvis deep into my physical therapy.
I go two times a week still, for my personal training of my pelvic floor.
No weights necessary.
It's still very weird. It gets a little better in the aspect of you know what is going to happen but that doesn't really mean you want it to, so at least you are mentally prepared....::shrugs shoulders::
But I really feel like I need to watch the news more to have more things to talk about with Dr.B. I mean the last thing on earth I want to happen while she is making sure those muscle are mobile, is for us to run out of things to talk about.
She is no Dr. S,but you could say things are getting pretty serious with us.
There have been a few times were she is making sure I am doing things right. No I don't want to talk about it.
I will say the biggest change I have seen is my external scar decreasing.
It's by no means gone, but the change has been significant, which moderately boost my self-esteem.
I am still not going to show anyone.
I wore a one piece this summer that was way too small for my body in front of my family to make sure no one saw it.
I doubt I will ever really get there with that one.
The pain has been less frequent as well. Which is the largest plus of all. The determination has been that the scar tissue itself is the the "true" culprit, so we could have another surgery.
I'm like the DJ Khaled of woman's heath surgeries...
I am hoping by my last visit on October 21st that I will be much better and there will be no need of