In honor of going to see my gynecologist over 15 times in the last 5 months; let's talk about the dreaded adventures to the vagina doctor.
Going to see your OBGYN is the most terrifying, required adventure on earth.
Once a year, if you are lucky to only go once a year, as a woman, you are required to go see this man, or woman that you pay to violate you.
I remember my very first adventure to see the gynecologist. I was 17 years old. I wanted to start taking birth control because, back when I use to bleed once a month, it use to be the worst experience of my whole.
It was like a real life murder. From the inside out. All of my insides hated me and I would have to get into this fetal position and pray to all things that were holy that I was going to go to church more, if Jesus would just take the pain away.
He didn't, so I had to go see this woman about some pills.
I wasn't ready for a man to analyze what I had to work with.
I still didn't exactly know what I was doing with it anyways, so no need for a man to stare at it and professionally tell me about my downstairs business.
I can't for the life of me remember her name, but she was a military doctor. She was tall, dark, and handsome. She was my commentator, and coach. She would tell me what she was doing when she was doing it, and then would tell me how good of a job I was doing.
I wasn't doing anything, other than staring up at this poster of a beach to tell me to escape to somewhere else and to make sure I never made eye contact with her.
It was anything but enjoyable.
Nowadays, I am a lot less awkward about it.
I have since been to multiple doctors to see my business.
And I love my current one now. I trust her with all my goods.
I can't say I am still not awkward about it.
How could you not be.
My post-operation meeting was last Tuesday, and it went really well. Everything is going according to plan.
Minus the whole fact that my scar tissue is not going to go down. She told me that I could go to a plastic surgeon to fix it.
This news did cause me to go into a full on panic attack because this is my worst nightmare.
She basically told me that this "cliff" I have on my stomach is
I would never see a plastic surgeon for my stomach. I would go for some better like boobs or bigger lips, but not a tummy tuck. They called it a mommy tuck.
A mommy tuck.
What the hell kind of shit is that.
I guess I am going to start looking for high-waisted bikini bottoms. This is bullshit.
Cut me some slack body.
Haven't I made enough sacrifices?